Exhaustion

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It has only been the second day of nursing classes and I am already tired and exhausted. Today I will have night class until 10 pm and then travel 20-30 minutes to get home. I am tired from staring at my textbook and the computer screen to complete my assignment. I wonder if this is the exhaustion and tiredness that nursing students commented about. I wonder if it will get worst. There is so much information to learn and I wonder if I will be able to retain everything and remember everything. It is overwhelming with much to do but little time for anything. The only break so far that I have to myself is taking time to eat other than that there is no time for me to take a glance at my phone nor watch a drama I had started. Well we will see how this weekend plays out.

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